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Month: October, 2008

Wow. Am I a cop-out or what? At least I tried.

28 October, 2008 (11:48pm) | Blog | 2 comments

Who are your last 4 texts from?
I don’t think this is even valid, because no one has texted me for three days.

Are you excited about anything major?
No. Maybe that’s my problem. I’m not looking forward to anything.

What’s your current favorite color?
Current? A favorite is not something to be tossed carelessly about like a dirty rag or an old shoe; It should be cared for daily, with loyalty. At any rate, mine is green.

Does your crush like you back?
Probably not, but I’m past caring. To me, having a crush on someone is more of a hindrance than a help. I’d rather just get to know someone and become lifelong friends, than have some sort of fleeting romantical fling.

What is your current mood?
Imagine being a moth all your life. You know you’re an ugly freak, and you keep trying to get at the light, this amazing source of pure beauty, but you keep flopping all over the place, never able to get a grip on anything. Now imagine that you’ve just turned into a hummingbird. you are now something beautiful, and you can hold still enough to get at the light, but instead of what you expected, some sort of fountain of loveliness or something… it’s just a piece of glass.

How long have you been sober?
Since October 18th. About a week and a half.

What color shirt are you wearing?

If you were going on a Reality TV show, which one would it be?
One of those shows where they give you lots of stuff…? Friends: Remember that. My birthday is coming up!

Did you ever sneak into an R rated movie?
No. I led a sadly sheltered life.

Ever had a near death experience?
A couple. The most prominent one was my car crash. I totally forgot I have pics of that! I need to get those up here…

What is something you do a lot?
Think. I think I think to much. I think.

How old will you be in 12 months?
21. Woot :-|

Do you want to see somebody right now?
There are so many people I want to see. I can’t even start. I miss everybody. If you’re reading this right now… I miss you.

What are your goals?
I want to make a difference in somebody’s life. I want to write music that changes people. I want to talk to people and have them listen. And I want to say something worth listening to. I’m still working on getting to that point.

Do you like rain?
With all my heart. Knowing that it is raining outside is like knowing that somebody loves me. It’s the closest feeling to being in love that I have ever felt without actually being in love.

What are you thinking about right now?
Being in love. Crap. Now I’m depressed. Stupid survey…

What are you listening to?
Brooke Waggoner. I Am Mine. I’ve been listening to it on repeat all day. It is amazing. You should listen to it.

Who is the last person you said i love you to?
I forget. Someone in my family. I told them all I love them today. I do that a lot, actually.

Who is the last person that made you smile?
Brooke Waggoner.

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Spring… er… Fall Cleaning

27 October, 2008 (5:47pm) | Blog | 1 comment

So, I think part of the reason I haven’t spent much time in the blogosphere lately is because I am backlogged. I have nearly 700 unread posts in my reader, and I’m too lazy to go through them and read the ones that are important to me. So… I am not going to read any of them. I also think I’m going to be unsubscribing from a lot of blogs. Don’t worry though, if you and I have ever had any sort of pseudo-blogger-relationship, chances are, I’ll still be reading your blogs. That said, bear (bare? I  forget… ) with me as I prepare for re-entry. Hopefully, I don’t burn up…

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To all my friends and family…

21 October, 2008 (11:43am) | Blog | No comments

Hey everyone! What’s up? I know I haven’t posted anything in a long time. A looooong time. But, I have an excuse. I’m not particularly proud of my excuse, but I want as many people to know what has been going on as possible. I need a little bit of accountability and encouragement. Below is a bulletin I posted on myspace explaining the past two months. I know none of you are really in the second group that this bulletin was aimed at, but I’m too lazy to edit it. I typed this up once and I really don’t feel up to doing it again. So without further ado, here is my lazy copy and paste post.


So, this bulletin is directed towards two different groups of people: The friends of mine that haven’t seen very much of me the past couple of months and have no idea what I have been up to, and the friends of mine that I have been hanging out with nearly everyday and are now wondering where I have been this past two days.

To the first group of people, let me tell you what my life has been lately. I drink alcohol, and I smoke cigarettes. In a typical day, I wake up late wherever I am… recover from what I had done the night before… call all my friends up… figure out where the party is at… go to the party… get drunk… pass out… repeat. I know most of you have known me for a long time as a good christian boy, so this information might come as a shock to you.

To the second group of people that I have gotten to know very well the past month or so, I want to start out by saying that I love you guys. We’ve had some good times, and we’ve had some pretty awesome parties. But I’m done. I may not be hanging out with many of you for a while, and I definitely won’t be coming to any parties. I’m done getting hammered.

Please understand that this has nothing to do with any of the awesome people I have met. I just had a realization the other day that if I didn’t do anything to stop my lifestyle, I would only go further and further down and pretty soon I wouldn’t be able to do anything with my life. Not to mention, because of my habits, I have been neglecting everything else in my life that is important to me. My family, my God, my career, my responsibilities. It had to end sometime.

And it has ended.

I love every single one of you guys, and if any of you want to chat with me, I would LOVE to get together with you.

All my love,

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